Nicole Dosei

Ultimate Revenge

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Last week’s Green Goddess mp3 was such a hit, I decided to make another this week! This one is kind of cool because it picks up where my “Hot Date” mp3 leaves off. You find yourself lying in my bed, helpless and vulnerable and very horny. You’ve been seduced, hypnotised and drugged(?!) by a beautiful woman and the fun is only just beginning …

I recommend listening to the Hot Date mp3 prior to listening to this recording. I do make a few references to that session in this one and it sets the scene nicely. However, I intentionally put this mp3 together so that you don’t *have* to listen to Hot Date if you don’t want to. It has a strong induction so you’ll easily go into trance with just this session alone.

Click here for a sample of this recording.

Recording includes:
Nicole Dosei as the Green Goddess; mild feminization, humiliation, financial domination; sexual slavery/mental bondage; repeat-after-me commands; controlled orgasm and in the background I sample my previous mp3 “I Control You”
Format: MP3 Download
Vocal Sound Effects: Reverb, Amplify, Overdub
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: Yes
Overdubbing Vocals: Yes
Length: 22 minutes
Price: $40.00

You are My Bitch

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In this installment of the Green Goddess series, I turn it up a notch and transform you from a helpless minion into my own personal bitch boy. This recording is short but very intense and it builds upon the previous Green Goddess mp3s; turning you into a human ATM for my pleasure. That means, if you haven’t already purchased and listened to I am the Green Goddess and You are My Slave, you should do so *before* listening to this powerful mp3.

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Recording includes:
Nicole Dosei as the Green Goddess; tease and denial, humiliation, financial domination; sexual slavery/mental bondage; repeat-after-me commands; controlled orgasm
Format: MP3 Download
Vocal Sound Effects: Reverb, Amplify, Echo
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: No
Overdubbing Vocals: Yes
Length: 18 minutes
Price: $40.00

Hot Date

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So many fetishes, so little time. Imagine what would happen if you were lucky enough to score a hot date with a sexy erotic hypnotist; but not just any erotic hypnotist … This is a hot date with Nicole Dosei! I worked with a partner on this production and I’m really excited about it because we tried some new things and I’m eager to hear feedback from you. Don’t leave me in the dark!

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Recording includes:
soft echoing vocals, subliminal whispers, foot, shoe and leg fetish, panties, feminization, falling in love, devotion, giantess fantasy, mild humiliation, and you get to listen to me take a shower … yeah, its that hot! also, I sample several of my previous recordings in this mp3, including Seduction and Fall in Love
Format: MP3 Download
Vocal Sound Effects: Reverb, Amplify, Echo
Prop Sound Effects: Yes
Soft Background Music: Yes
Overdubbing Vocals: Yes
Length: 33 minutes
Price: $29.99

I haven’t released a new recording since July 2009.

Has it really been that long? Wow.

The last half of 2009 brought with a lot of personal struggles but that is over and done with now and 2010 seems to be bursting with potential right now. I seem to have found myself a partner in crime, if you will. Together we’ve written a totally hot new script that is just packed full of fetishes and sexiness. (Hint: You get to listen to me take a shower!) Our working title right now is “Hot Date” but we may or may not change that.

Anyway, the big news is I plan to release the finished mp3 THIS Friday, January 22! So be on the lookout. I’ll post it here and of course I’ll send out an email via Niteflirt when its ready for purchase. In addition to having a co-producer on this project, I’ll be trying out some new techniques and playing around with new fetishes so I’m really looking forward to hearing your feedback.

ALSO I will be redesigning the website. All the links will still work but things may look a little sketchy for a few days so try to bare with me. I’ve had this look for nearly a year now and its definitely time for something new. Thanks for sticking with me through the tough times, guys!

love, Nicole

I’m sure there are many of you out there who don’t celebrate Christmas in a traditional way or perhaps in any way at all. Regardless, I hope this day brings you joy and blessings and love. This holiday season has been so very difficult but also so beautiful in so many ways. Its not what I expected or might have hoped for but I’m glad things have turned out the way they have.

I began the day with a Skype call to a friend across the Pond. He’s alone this Christmas and so am I so we spent much of our day together via Skype and Second Life. I got to spend an amazing half hour watching someone very small and very special open her Christmas gift from me via webcam. Then I returned to SL for amazing music and closeness with my friends from far away. Now I’m listening to Mirrorball (a gift from one of my darling puppets this year, thank you sweetie) and listening to M. fall asleep over Skype. Its a weird thing we do sometimes but I think we both take comfort in it and thats what really matters isn’t it?

When I finish writing this, I’ll probably take a book to the bath and stretch out in some hot water and read for awhile. I’ve been reading Stephen King’s “Under the Dome” and I’m almost near the end now. I hate it when a good book is over but I never can seem to make them last. Thats okay though because I received a few other books this Christmas.

I wanted to say thank you to everyone who sent me gifts and well wishes this holiday. I really appreciate each and every one of you. I’m looking forward to the New Year and all it will bring. Peace and joy to my darlings on this Christmas Day 2009.

love Nicole

When I first began posting about my personal struggles here I wasn’t sure what to expect. There’s this idea that if you’re a “pro domme” in any capacity, there’s no room to be weak or soft. I never really liked that idea much and so I’ve always kind of shied away from the domme title. Regardless, I knew going into this that many people saw me as being above them or superior to them in some way and I suppose I was a little bit worried that by exposing myself in such a way, I would tumble off this pedestal. That sounds pretty arrogant, doesn’t it? Anyway …

The past two weeks have been extremely difficult and there have been times when I’ve wished I could just turn it off and walk away from everything thats going on right now. Some of it has been related to the eating disorder. Most of it has just been familial discord. Its awful when a family turns on itself but I do see a little ray of light shining in all of this. I think if we just get through the next couple of months, it will all turn out alright.

That said, I have been amazed by the outpouring of kindness from my callers. Seems like every day I wake up and there’s at least a few emails from various sources just offering me encouragement and building me up. I have said it time and time again, I love my callers. And its true. (By callers, I mean everyone who enjoys my recordings and my hypnosis. Not just the ones who call me live.) You guys aren’t just fans or clients or whatever for me. You are my friends and my support system and sometimes I think you don’t realize it, but you touch my life and make it brighter.

I am overwhelmed by your kindness and generosity. I am flattered by your faith in me. The idea that you trust me enough to put you into a trance, to toy with your mind again and again; its really amazing when you think about it. So whether you think of me as your godess or your mistress, your princess or your little hypnotic girlfriend … From this girl’s heart to yours, I want to say thank you and let you know just how blessed I am to have each and every one of you in my life right now.

Happy Holidays, sweetie!

love, Nicole

December snuck up on me, I think. My niece moved in with me back in September and the weeks since then have just flown by like the wind. On Halloween we moved into a bigger apartment so we kind of skipped that holiday and Thanksgiving just seemed surreal. It was just the two of us so we didn’t really see any point in trying to prepare an elaborate meal. We did end up going out with another single friend of ours and that was an interesting experience to say the least. But December? Really? Where did that come from?

So NF seems to be gradually getting its act back together. I did find out recently that International calls are no longer being accepted by the NF system so if you live anywhere outside of the US or Canada, you have to download a program called Skype and sign up for their SkypeIN program which will allow you have an American phone number with which to access NF. That alone is so annoying to me; I cannot imagine how frustrating it must be to anyone who has to actually jump through all those hoops just to get in touch with their favorite NF girl.

I’m still looking into other options. I may try to open a new Keen account for my International callers but Keen is so strict. I don’t even really do the whole “phonesex thing” and they shut me down in a heart beat when they saw me selling hypnosis mp3s. I haven’t given up though. I’ll post here if I find a solution that works.

Now for the real reason for this impromptu update:

I’ve written before about my personal struggle with eating disorders but I’ve never really opened up about how it affects my life. By its very nature, an eating disorder is difficult to talk about. Its something you almost have to keep secret because even those who are struggling with the same things don’t always understand. On the surface it looks like its all about beauty and vanity and being thin and pretty and perfect and so there’s this stigma that only young women have these problems or that anyone who does is very shallow and self absorbed. There’s also this idea that you have to be a certain size in order to have an eating disorder. If you’re not skinny, you’re not really sick. But that isn’t true. None of it is.

In my experience, its not about any one thing. You can’t pinpoint the reasons why or exactly when it all began. I’ve had “disordered thoughts” about food and weight and body image for as long as I can remember. Growing up, I felt that food had a life of its own; a personality of its own. Food could comfort you but it could also punish you. If you denied yourself the pleasure of consuming food, you could become a better person and if you gave in and ate something, depending on what that something was, you were revealing your own weakness, your own imperfections. Ironically, these rules only applied to me. I came from a family of big eaters and it never phased me at all to watch my family eat. I felt that I was just different in some way.

I don’t think I really began engaging in “disordered eating” until I was in high school. The thoughts and ideas had been there for a long time but I had never really acted on them. It was easier to just go with the flow and do what the rest of my family did. I think I knew that actually acting differently would raise questions I couldn’t answer. When I was in high school, however, meal time took an abrupt turn around. Instead of everyone eating together, we barely saw each other and most of the time I was alone so it became very easy to alter my eating habits and since I was supposedly in a growth spurt, it wasn’t a big deal when my weight began to fluctuate.

Since then I’ve gone through periods where I was at a “normal weight” and secretly struggling, obviously underweight and seeking treatment and even being grossly overweight when “recovery” seemed to work a little too well. The past couple of years have been particularly difficult for me. I’m only writing about it here now because I think its begun to show. I haven’t released a new mp3 in months and I’ve had several requests come in that I’ve been unable to fulfill.

I am committed to getting better though. For the past few months I have actually been improving bit by bit. November 30th was a particularly hellish night but it was the first hellish night in a long time and so even in the darkness, there’s reason for hope. Its a little early yet but my New Year’s resolution for 2010 is going to be just this; to actually stick with the recovery process long enough to be able to make a lasting change. It may mean I have to recommit time and time again but really, if I’m the kind of woman who can make men fall in love with her with just her voice and if I’m the kind of woman who can turn just about anyone into a helpless puppet, doesn’t it stand to reason that I am also the kind of woman who isn’t about to be controlled by something as destructive and pointless as an eating disorder?

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I just feel like sharing my thoughts on a topic that is very personal to me. Disordered eating has affected my life for almost as long as I can remember. I have struggled with it off and on since I was about 13 or so. Members of my family have and still do struggle and I have lost loved ones as a result of untreated anorexia and bulimia.

Several months ago the 14 yr old sister of a friend I know from an eating disorder forum died of a heart attack. No one in her family even knew that she was bulimic until the autopsy confirmed esophageal lesions from an estimated 2 years of purging. You see, her older sister had been diagnosed with and was undergoing treatment for anorexia nervosa. Its not that her parents didn’t care. They just didn’t see.

Disordered eating can be insidious. The thoughts that lead to the behavior can seem to sneak up on you out of nowhere. Its easy to hide disordered eating habits for a long time; often no one even notices until its almost too late. Some people blame the media. Some people blame Western society. It is true that in under developed countries, eating disorders are pretty much unheard of.

Eating disorders destroy lives.

Anyone can develop an eating disorder. Most people associate disordered eating with anorexia nervosa or bulimia nervosa but there are other disorders as well: compulsive over-eating, orthorexia and night-time eating, to name a few. Then of course there are victims who don’t fit into a neat little category and so they get lumped together as “ED-NOS”, eating disorder-not otherwise specified. These behaviors affect both men and women, teenagers and middle-aged alike. There is a disturbing trend of children as young as 6 developing eating disorders as well. It even affects the elderly.

Believe it or not, its not about looks or being pretty. Its not about the food either. The thoughts may start out that way. Many of the young people I have counseled told me that it just started out as a diet. They never intended to get sick. Unfortunately there are also misguided individuals who do set out to develop an eating disorder thinking it will help them to become thin and perfect and popular. Most of the time these people don’t get far. Its not easy to starve yourself for weeks on end or to binge and then purge. Its not easy to turn away food when your friends and family are all enjoying delicious meals and conversation. Unfortunately, some do. They begin mimicking the behavior and then thoughts quickly follow and take control.

Having an eating disorder is sometimes described as having a split personality or feeling as if someone else has taken over your body and your life. You reach a point where you know what you see in the mirror can’t be real. You know what you’re doing is bad for you, possibly even killing you but you can’t “just stop” and you can’t “just eat” or “just stop eating” as the case may be. It feels as if someone or something else has pushed you to the back of your own mind and is controlling every aspect of your life. Eventually it can seem like you don’t even have a life at all anymore. The desperation to not live like that anymore often drives sufferers to self-harm and suicide.

So, why am I sharing all this with the readers of a blog that should be sexy and fun? I am sharing this information because I believe that we can change these trends. Most of my readers are men and you guys have so much power without even realizing it. Chances are, someone in your life has been affected by an eating disorder. Its more common than you might think. Sometimes all it takes to push someone over the edge or gently draw them back is a handful of words.

The first time I ever thought of myself as fat was when a family member told me I was eating too much at a holiday dinner. I was about 5 or 6 years old. Gradually I became paranoid that my body was the wrong shape or the wrong size. By the time I was 13, I lived in absolute terror of ever weighing more than 99 lbs. Even then, it wasn’t really about the food. I was a little perfectionist. I grew up with this belief that the only possible way I could be worthy of love and affection was if I did everything absolutely perfect. So it was only natural that I needed to look perfect as well. This isn’t about me though so I’m not going to say anything more about my personal struggle. I do have a support system and I’m mostly okay.

Think about what you say before you say it. Be observant. Pay attention. Noticing the signs of an eating disorder could save a life. Sometimes a cry for help is silent. Sometimes when someone is doing something “just for attention” you really should give them attention and try to figure out whats really going on. Preventing a problem is so much more effective than solving it later on.

In young people especially look out for references to “ana” and “mia”; these are pet names used on many pro- eating disorder websites. (Yes, there is a plethora of websites dedicated to helping people maintain disordered eating habits as a lifestyle choice and most of the users are between the ages of 10 and 18.) People who are pro-eating disorder will often wear bracelets to identify each other in public. These bracelets can be made from string, beads or various other cheap materials and are usually red for anorexia or dark blue/purple for bulimia. Not everyone who wears such a bracelet is promoting an eating disorder, of course but it is a commonly used method of identification and sometimes as a reminder not to eat. As an aside, sometimes people who are in recovery will wear light blue as a way to remind themselves not to give up.

So, I’ve included links to articles that go into much further detail about various eating disorders and what can be done about them. Thanks for reading, guys and I promise my next entry will be something sexy and fun.

Anorexia Nervosa

Bulimia Nervosa

Orthorexia Nervosa

Compulsive Over Eating

ED-NOS: Eating Disorder-Not Otherwise Specified